KaRMa: DeFiNeD

can i throw a question? would it be a sin or would it be a greater sin rather, to bitch about somebody's wrongdoing? is it really better to talk to that person face to face rather than talking behind?
is it also a fault or a mistake, to be someone that is different or just deviant from the "norm" that we also put up? are geeks abnormal and jocks normal? are the pretty ones accepted socially and those with not so symmetrical faces should stay at home?
i've done some soul searching while i was on the bus/train yesterday and thought about what if i am in VoLDeMoRT's shoes (heels rather, or boots), i really tried very hard to understand how her coconut works. 5 minutes of trying i had a headache. my face flushed red and i can feel my ears turn tomatoes again. so, i decided to focus on myself this time. asking whether i am wrong into joining a bunch of bickering bitches (no offense intended) chuckling everyday to the same topic, to the same enigma, to the same you-know-who.
karma, as what buddhism teaches, is something that you do, either good or bad, will happen to you in return. maybe this is where the saying what goes around comes around. or maybe what us christians believe, what ever you do in this world, will make you go to heaven or hell.
its funny coz ah lian told me that it doesn't matter to her as long as voldy isn't there! mind that!
our new uncle also tried to share his piece of witz by trying to decipher voldy's unfathomable deepness of thought (wah lau), by telling us that maybe voldy is the type of person who is so self centered, that she knows what she's doing is wrong but still does her own way coz its comfortable and correct for her!
another theory is she was maybe bitten by a dog who was bitten by a mosquito who took blood from an insane guy who was a distant relative of princess dabi! (this was invented, btw).
anyways, i hope this circus ends soon. i feel guilty. i feel angry. i feel exhausted. for me, i dont believe in karma. i have my own reasons. you can explain karma all you want to a priest who was beheaded. u can explain karma to a child who has leukemia. fate is what you make of it. it is written. why im blogging right now is because it is written.

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