aLLBYMYSeLF

as i sit here alone in the bank tonight, a thought of lonliness crept and starts to haunt me. how many people in the world have this job like me? you cant have it all? thats what they always say. but what about oprah? donald trump? do they have problems like ours? i dont think so.
i dunno whats wrong but it feels wrong. i keep on having deep breaths and yawning as if im tired of living. i had enough sleep. maybe a little over. but i feel lethargic and i have no appetite to work. someone asked me tonight, "how are you, ivan?". i was speechless. i want to make an honest answer but i want to say im good too. i just came back from a holiday and what a rush that was. seems like a week packed in 24 hours. went to macau, braved the heat, enjoyed those egg tarts, crossed to hongkong, fought the typhoon, ate shit in a toilet resto, went home, watched formula one and mr felipe massa's crew making a boo boo, friends coming from thailand, in-laws staying with us for 2 weeks . . . seems like a lot of things going on right now donchathink?
anyways, i just bought a desktop replacing my antique one. and i was so damn excited to play civilization IV and the stupid microsoft vista wont allow me! aiyo. aiyo yo yo yo. so dad. maybe thats why im so "?" today.
stupid bleeder, interrupted me while i was typing. i really hate them. when your stock is low for a certain blood group, thaen the bleeder will have that same blood group! damn them. cap'n oaks would advise them, if the grim reaper wants you now, dont fight it. die! dont disturb other people! especially those who are busy blogging!


(that is not me)


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