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a lot had happened since the last time i blogged . .been a while . . .just no time to blab about whats going on . .maybe got tired of complaining and became numb and exhausted . . dont even care if nobody reads this junk anymore. maybe its only a way or the only way i can let my anger or frustrations out without making someone lose their teeth.
oh well, my cavies are doing ok, i guess. still learning their behavior and their habits . . .my little girl heidi, seems to be curious and could recognise my voice while baby boy oscar seems aloof, too scared to go out his little tunnel i made for them.
then came midweek where i got this urge to build something for them. went to an arts and crafts store and gathered materials, from coroplast boards to wooden sticks, felt cloths and iron grids, i sat down one night and made my wife happy to see me make a new cage, a new play pen for them. a 15 by 30 inch, 2 storey home for my cavies . .maybe i could later snap some photos of them running around, up and down the stairs . .. while heidi is a glutton, oscar is not so trusting. only eats when nobody is around and keeps looking at you like those doves (pigeons) in the animated move "bolt". his stare is always asking, "do i know you?, i know i've seen you somewhere, but hmmn, do i know you?". . . there goes guinea pigs short term memory . .only lasts 10 seconds i guess . . .
well, about work, it still sux. but i do want a different role now and be an observer. no more imposing of what i want or what must be done. it seems that people do get spoiled if they are treated well. give your hand, they will get the whole arm kind of a deal. i dont like that. nobody likes that. unless you are on the receiving end of it. what kind of a workplace is it that depends benchwork on newcomers? what if they made a mistake? are they liable to answer or those around her who seems indifferent to take all the responsibility? when i was new, i was never bullied to do things i never learned yet. and though i have experience and have done it before in another hospital, its not my ticket to perform such tests without supervision. are we thinking straight here or are we just cowarldy bullies? is our title as MT's and SMT's preceed what we do? can MT's choose jobs or talk more that JMT's? do we always have to boss around newcomers to do things for the lousy reason of "you need practice". remember, if you want to teach someone, you have to supervise and watch that person all the way. guiding and instructing them what techniques should and could help them. telling them to do something and run away and never check is bullying and being bossy. shit to all of you who do this. i promise you will hear from me soon if you don't change. and to those who's priority is PRESS RELATIONS rather than benchwork when its time for benchwork, i dont care if we are close or not, you'll hear me ring your bell also. i have worked here long enough to grow roots and can tell people who are good in what they do and to those who are good in making friends to higher authorities so that they are not only good but they feel good at themselves. shame on you. ill be watching.
phew!
that made my heart pump more blood than usual . . .tsk . . its just fustrating to see everyday the same thing happen without improvement. my main question always starts with "how can blah blah blah . . . .?". im asking coz i was not trained to do things this way. all of us are not trained this way. we have a system. a system that is supposed to be followed. a system that has worked. why do we have to do things another way? for what reason? shame on you.
mooosah!
so far so good . ..my night has started reasonably quiet. just sad to see group o pct's are on the low side but not that low to panic and worry . . .2 samples in an hour . . blogging for 30 mins now . . what more can i ask . .later i could even watch a movie . . and play football in my psp . . .
hey wabsie, keep my blue pillow warm ok? nevermind my saliva, you could smell me in that pillow to help you sleep. luv ya.
anybody else reading this blog entry, up yours!





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CaVieS!

meet oscar and heidi . . .newest members of my family . . .here early in the morning in our bed eating one of their favorite snacks . .pandan leaves!!

LaPaRoToMY

i had an experience before in my previous institution whereby i was the technologist on duty, alone mind you, in a hospital laboratory. handling all departments by myself and had this case of a man, a hippopotamus of a man actually, waistline of no less than 100 inches going for a laparotomy procedure (laparotomy LA-puh-RAH-toh-mee A surgical incision made in the wall of the abdomen. )the man was so fat that liposuction, dieting, and all other hopes of slimming down fails and they had to make his stomach smaller to help him reduce weight by putting on a band (lap banding). well the band ruptured and damaged his peripheral organs and he acquired sepsis (blood infection). making the long story short, he was opened up, tried to be patched up, i was so damn busy, busiest nyt of my career, yet the following 2 days he gave up and died.
tonight, i got another one. no he is not obese, he's just a bleeder. the team of doctors just keeps on wasting blood by not investigating properly whats causing the bleed . . sigh . .there goes my break again . . .
ill be calling all the saints tonigt . .. have mercy.



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PeRHaPS, PeRHaPS, PeRHaPS...

alamak.
so long i haven't blogged and the first thing in my head before blogging is again the same complaints, complaints, complaints. . .
this is becoming redundant. annoying even. can you imagine. im being annoying to myself!
well, life is shitty these times. the world is experiencing recession and bts morals are also in recession. people don't care anymore. save thyself!!!. thats the attitude! human survival instincts overcomes passion and sacrifice. to hell with you im going out and you better take care of the bank! thats the spirit!
well, gone were the days where people envy bts for its quiet, ORGANIZED, harmonious environment. the shepherd left and the herd was left confused and unattended.

quiet night tonight. one trx. one abid. one discrepancy. normal amount of t/s. only a handful of stupid nurses and doctors working. looking forward for my break. hungry.

aaargh . .7 hours to go . . .
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i'D RaTHeR

I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end
of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone (alone)
and I tried to find
out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoo-oo-oo-oo yeah

And then I met someone
and thought she could replace you
we got a long just fine
we wasted time because she was not you
we had a lot of fun
though we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies
so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
who holds my heart

I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine,

I'd rather have bad times with (please be mine) you,
than good times with someone else (I know)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (anytime),
than safe and warm by myself (so sure baby)
I'd rather have hard times to gether,
than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart (my heart)

I'd rather have bad times with you (surely),
than good times with someone else (surely)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (oh yeah),
than safe and warm by myself (all by myself)
I'd rather have hard times together,
than to have it easy apart (you know it)
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoooo.....who holds my heart


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LuNaR NeW YeaR LoVe

working again full day for the second day straight . . .12 hour boringest shifts . . not until some stupid driver crash his car, only then we can get some excitement . .. hohumn . . .

anyways, i was smilin this morning when i was about to shower . . i was having my early morning coffee and opened the backdoor for my cat was restlessly rubbing his fat tummy to me . . i think he has no choice but to come to me since his mum is happily snoring still in the bed . . . i walked out of the backdoor and sat outside at our neighbors chair to feel the early morning cold breeze . . i thought it was peaceful . . .then suddenly out of nowhere i saw this young teenage white cat my wife has been pimping for our ozzy slowly approach my fat ungrateful cat. as i observe, i saw a paw, gently reaching out just to touch the outstretched paw of this cute white cat . . .and i smiled. i was happy for ozzy and for the experience this morning.

well, me working and all of you are sleeping. may you all grow fat!!!!!


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TuRMoiL!

whoa . . i didn't know and expect people to have same sentiments towards whats going on right now at work. geez. it just fortified my longing to get outta here. and soon.

sad to realize how hopeful and optimistic you can be yet still nothing good will happen. i've been in this kind of situation before and i witnessed a few of these as well. good employees leaving because of mismanagement which ranges from insensitivity to being hypocrites to the max. insensitivity in a sense that you don't know what your staff feels coz you are not there anymore and hypocritical coz even if its being said and done in your face you still got NO TIME to deal with it.

anyways, i was advised to go with the flow (yet again) by a voice i always listen (luv u borj). all i can say now is that time is getting shorter. when the fuse is lit, dont blow coz it will not be put out. again, ill be observing. hoping, to its truest meaning, im really hoping you could wake up with a bump in your head and realize what you are doing is never going to work. same with all those who think they are doing things right in the bbank. are you really working your asses up? do you mind to stop talking while other people sweat coz they are busy and help? dunno who taught you all these things but all i know you were never trained this way. never.

dammit. now my sunday starts with my bp rising. moooooosaaaaaaahhhhh!

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CoN JoBS

i dunno who to blame.
how can a company offer a salary of 2.5k in their ads.
then when you get called up for an interview, they will tell you "our offer is 1.5k only".
then you ask what happens to the other 1k?
they say that the agency will get its share.

wtf?!?

does that mean my declared salary to the ministry of manpower and internal revenue is 2.5k but actual salary that im receiving is 1.5k only?
doest that mean ill be paying taxes for the salary declared as 2.5k while i work for 1.5k only?
why does companies cheat openly about this and no actions are being done?
do i blame them for cheating employees?
or,
do i blame the stupid ones who are desparate enough to be abused by these companies and makes these convicts richer?

think.


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36

HAPPY

ANNIVERSARY

WABSIE!




i love you mostest!
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a VieTCoNG iNVaDeS SiNGaPoRe

the day has come for lil bro to let go of the umbilical cord attaching him to his mother. lolz. and is now attached to me! i wonder how it would feel like. anyways, we do hope and pray that he will have the easiest time possible in finding work here even though it is recession ans all. . . .anyways, welcome 'cong!
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NeW YeaR NeW CHaLLeNGeS

too bad i gotta start a year in red.no not financially. not even emotionally. could be professionally. lolz. funny how life give you lemons. anyways, when lemons being thrown at you, the best thing that you could do is make lemonade out of it.

'lil bro is coming over on the 14th. hope he wont a hard time here in singapore. just a piece of advice though. i know you are down and sad and scared but when everything bad goes your way, ill be the bright side of it all. just tap me in the shoulder and we will work everything out for ya. its the same advice i got from our older siblings. just concentrate as to what you are supposed to do and everything will just follow. all the things youve planned before and other nice surprises awaits you.

anyways, 3rd year anniversary coming and just to let those suckers know, the marriage is as strong if not stronger than before. thanks for all the bad wishers and i hope it didnt bounce back in front of your own lives.
we will be watching lea salonga's cinderella to top it all. my wife and myself being the fan of the arts will be celebrating it on the 15th with arguably the best voice the theatre has ever heard. it might not be as great as cats or miss saigon or the phantom of the opera but hey, its lea salonga singing! anyways, too bad no photo taking allowed. i hope i could sneak up my omnia to do the job.

well, nyt shift and thats it for me today till sunday. happy working bozos.

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BaD oMeN

wel, one way or another, good or bad, its something to kickstart a bullshitfull new year.

no we are not understaffed. its a matter of staff management.

or maybe a matter of human values like being helpful since you know and see that we lack one person on that day. (so put the damn lab coat on and help like what your mentor used to do! dammit!)

or maybe learn 6S to trace how many steps we have to waste just to do test requisition.

or maybe pick up the damn fone that is just 3 inches away from your elbow since the three people working are either issuing blood, doing ABO or busy clearing reagent inventory!

or maybe stand up and see whether you are gaining weight because you sit down too much? (i like joseph).

anyways, working for these kind of people makes me wonder why do i need to go to church regularly since i always bitch about them. well, i got a newsflash for ya. i dont bitch. i say what i think i need to say and that being said, you suck at what you do and because you suck at what you do, good workers go away coz u could be contagious.

time to look for a new pasture. might be green, might be brown. all i know the grass on this side is wilting too fast.

damn you.
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