B%!!$#!7!!!!!!!!!

"he always lies! how can u tell if he's telling the truth or he's lying?"

kapow! kablam kablam! . . .tsk tsk tsk. that hurt.
this will be the day i start to think before i talk and choose people i'd be talking to. the only thing i regret is that i trusted so much. now i know that sacrificing myself as a clown did me no good.

no hard feeling's huh? BS.

BoRDoMeVaCCiNe!

some good soul provided us with much needed music today . .courtesy of this little jukebox . . hahaha . .so surprised to see such a small 1950's cassette player . . i still don't understand how they put all the blame on us playing music through the internet radio while upon testing the computer's speed with music playing and without music playing got nothing much difference? maybe they think people working in the lab is stupid enough to believe all nerdy reasons they give. its just that maybe they are not competent enough to solve the program's problems. anyways, lets just have a toast to our newest member of the bts family. F U LIS!
F U, F U, FFFFFFFFFFF UUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!

so good . . no royal partner here, out for her royal lunch. ate her royal break an came back to work royally full. not much of a royal day at work. so royally boring. stocks came early and her royal stock guy friend came before 11am! so royally prompt. royal highness is working today as well as tomorrow. she's royally hardworking. like a real royal princess. a royal model. shhh . .royal highness might come back soon and catch me blogging. better finish so tat my royal ass wont be spanked to the royal oblivion. (my tongue got twisted while composing this nonsense)

aFeWGooDMeN...

just had my break. thanks to chef bee chu for the toasted chicken nuggets. so healthy coz no oil was used. duh! thats why its called toasted! and also my gratitude extends to the person who brought the seaweed bizkits, i luv them. now is the time i dread the most. 4 to 6 in the morning. so quiet even alan nor emily is asleep! i look around and and tried finding things to improve and all i do is vandalize patient's worksheets or draw silly things on the wytbord. im bored. maybe i need to jog a few rounds. or just sit in front of the platelet agitator and let myself be hypnotized by its swaying movements from left to right.

BRaiN.VS.HeaRT

From a simple clinical view, the heart would outrank the brain.

some people say its the brain coz it controls most of your bodily functions, even when you feel something, you have to think first before sometimes. clinicians would debate this topic by saying the heart can go on even without a viable brain like in a coma. but in a comic strip "peanuts", while snoopy was jogging,all his body parts were arguing who is more important. the heart has the last laugh by saying, " remember boys, if i go, you all go". but what makes the heart beat? who controls it? if its strength, the heart is the strongest muscle of the body. if its power, the brain will always win. u be the judge.

all this mushy, yucky, colorful topic was brought about by some juicy things happening to my world lately. just a simple force called "love" stirred the most stable foundations of the place i worked in. i feel guilty though. i dunno how to put my feelings in place. would i be happy for the person in love or would i be cautioning her not to really put a lot in to it. or maybe im just happy for the entertainment it brings. the latter is the most scary of all.

one 54 year old married lady, one politics-internet crazy brother, 3 attached sisters, 1 engaged feline, 2 single, free spirited ladies and a socially challenged-in-love-for-the-first-time voldemort. and im in the middle of it. whew.

to the one i've chatted just now, just ponder on this. "true love doesn't have a happy nor sad ending. its just that it has no ending." thats what i have right now.

christine fiscal diesto. luv u borj.

Blepharospasm

thats eye twitching for ya! . . darn . . saturday . .whole day working . . my wife went shopping alone. . .got my eyes twitching again . . .2 nights with 4+ hours of sleep onli . . .so sleepy now . . .wanna go break and drink my copi . . .i wish all the people in da world now who's resting will have back aches, head aches, tummy aches, finger aches, sore throat, sore knees, sore hairs etc etc . . except for those whom i love . . hwehehehehe . . .yasai!!!!!
Blepharospasm is the technical term for involuntary eye twitching (eye spasms). Blepharospasm is more specifically defined as an abnormal involuntary blinking or spasm of the eyelids.

MuSiCiNMYHeaD . . .

Just what is it in me?
Sometimes I just don't know
What keeps me in Your love,
Why you never let me go

And though you're in me now,
I fall and hurt you still
My Lord, please show me how
To know just how you feel

You have forgiven me
Too many times it seems
I feel I'm not what you might call
A worthy Christian after all

And though I love You so
Temptation finds its way to me

Teach me to trust in You
With all my heart
To lean not on my own understanding
I just forget
You won't give me what I can't bear

Take me out of the dark, my Lord
I don't wanna be there

You've never left my side
You gave Your hand to me to hold
Oh Jesus, I'm no longer in the cold

And yet, I leave You there
When I feel satisfied
I'd like to thank You every day
Not only when I feel that way

I've never known a Man
Who'd give His life for sinners like me
And yet, because He loves us so
He's promised us eternity
And we can have that promise
And be His if we have faith
And just believe

Teach us to trust in you
With all my heart
To lean not on my own understanding
We just forget
You won't give us what we can't bear

Take us out of the dark, My Lord
'Cause we don't want to be alone
Take me out of the dark, My Lord
We don't wanna be there, My Lord

Trust in You with all my heart
Lean not on my own understanding
I just forget
You won't give me what I can't bear

Take me out of the dark, My Lord
Cause we don't want to be alone
Take me out of the dark, My Lord
I don't want to be there

CaTCHMeiFYouCaN!

any sugges tions as how to find a terror ist? . . .hmmmn . . .maybe we should have a campaign here in singa pore.another one coz i think its the government's most effective weapon in administering discipline here in singapore. ill call it "shave all you can" campaign . . a terrorist never shaves. he dislikes shaving. hehehehe. found a photo that could help this killer. though i was quick enough to shave so that i wont be mistaken . . .hahahaha . . .i despise terrorists like cockroaches. they are cowards. ask osama to be in the boxing ring with me. no rules. just plain fistfight . . .tsk tsk tsk . . .

iPRoMiSe

Dear Wabsie,

I promise to give you the best of myself
and to ask of you no more than you can give.

I promise to respect you as your own person
and to realize that your interests, desires and needs
are no less important than my own.

I promise to share with you my time and my attention
and to bring joy, strength, and imagination to our relationship.

I promise to keep myself open to you,
to let you see through the window of my world into my innermost
fears and feelings, secrets and dreams.

I promise to grow along with you,
to be willing to face changes in order to keep our relationship
alive and exciting.

I promise to love you in good times and bad,
with all I have to give and all I feel inside in the only way I know how.
Completely and forever.



fighting hunger and tiredness, overcoming sleepiness and boredom,
Capt. Oaks.

SeReNDiPiTY . . .

Serendipity is the effect by which one accidentally discovers something fortunate, especially while looking for something else entirely.

thats what it feels like being with this bunch of caring, loving, thoughtful, evil individuals im working with. sometimes it makes you wonder whether fate is really your own doing or made by a divine being overseeing things happening around us.


after i left alexandra hospital, i felt kinda sad coz the bunch i was working with for 2 years made me feel at home. though the management sux plus i dunno where i was headed, my colleagues treated me as a family member. respected my opinions and made me belong. unfortunately some "people" made me feel scared coz they are supposed to be guiding me to the right path of success yet they fell way way short of my expectations. instead, inevitably, i have to move on.

last week was something i never expected. more so yesterday's dinner. noticing im the only pinoy in the table, gave my heart a warm, proud feeling. aside from the evil cat, i do think honestly that they have grown dear to me and i am to them. hats off to you guys for a new home. somehow i get bullied, beaten up or just plain boring days with all of you makes me happy. never mind those we "marked" as incompetent, i still do love them. without them, we will have one less topic. hahaha.
mushy mushy mushy . . .im so gay tonight. yaiks.

HaPiBLeNTyNeS!

did you know that the origins of valentine's day or st. valentine's day isnt romantic at all? heheheh . .not to spoil anything nor declaring myself unromantic but just for facts, it marks a day where one christian martyr died . . .
anyways, i dunno if its bad or good fortune that my wife is sick today . . meaning, i was not alone in the haus. tell me if this is romantic or not? we spent the day in a clinic trying to get her an mc, ate in a very limited selection hawker center, bought 3 kg of bananas that will ripen in 2 days time. went home and watched a gameshow, played football while she slept etc etc . . .
bottom line, i love my best friend. would spend this day with no other. lab u borj. i would love to spend all of my valentine's day with you more.

WHoSaiDiT'SaHoLiDaY?!?!?!?

grrrrrr . .im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx! . .. . its the first day of the chinese new year and my goodness! how can i be busy??? i dunno if this happened first time in tan tock seng hospital, ALL FONE LINES ARE DEAD! and i have a patient with her skull opened by a bunch of adventurers and they ask constanly of blood and other products! i didnt expect this!waaaaaaaaah . .father, father, why art thou forsaken me? life goes on . . . .

HaPPYLuNaRNeWYeaR

geez . . if you are chinese, i think you should spend more than non chinese people every year coz you have more holidays, imagine, you have to celebrate new year twice! lets just put it this way, if you are a rojak singaporean, grandparents are a mix malay and chinese, then you are married to an indian christian guy, lets count how many holidays you have to celebrate. (lets not imagine how your colleagues hate you btw).
new years day. chinese new year. valentine's day (married). lent (good friday). labour day. labor day (might get pregnant). hari raya. deepavali. hari raya haji. national day (coz u are patriotic). christmas! etc etc (sorry if i missed out sumthing.

anyways, i read some comic strip about last year being the year of the fire pig whereas the mother of the house was preparing meals from "pork" during their reunion dinner. makes me wonder this year are they serving roasted rat, mouse kway tyaw, or mice "loh hei" . . .pardon me my chinese friends, i know im just being an ass. im just bored woorking here without much to do. (no stupid nurses to argue around) seems like those with little brains have gone for a long holiday and the smart ones left behind. i pity those chinese nurses though, they look sad as if someone just passed away. tsk tsk tsk. eniweys! happy lunar new year you rats you!