MuSiCiNMYHeaD . . .

Just what is it in me?
Sometimes I just don't know
What keeps me in Your love,
Why you never let me go

And though you're in me now,
I fall and hurt you still
My Lord, please show me how
To know just how you feel

You have forgiven me
Too many times it seems
I feel I'm not what you might call
A worthy Christian after all

And though I love You so
Temptation finds its way to me

Teach me to trust in You
With all my heart
To lean not on my own understanding
I just forget
You won't give me what I can't bear

Take me out of the dark, my Lord
I don't wanna be there

You've never left my side
You gave Your hand to me to hold
Oh Jesus, I'm no longer in the cold

And yet, I leave You there
When I feel satisfied
I'd like to thank You every day
Not only when I feel that way

I've never known a Man
Who'd give His life for sinners like me
And yet, because He loves us so
He's promised us eternity
And we can have that promise
And be His if we have faith
And just believe

Teach us to trust in you
With all my heart
To lean not on my own understanding
We just forget
You won't give us what we can't bear

Take us out of the dark, My Lord
'Cause we don't want to be alone
Take me out of the dark, My Lord
We don't wanna be there, My Lord

Trust in You with all my heart
Lean not on my own understanding
I just forget
You won't give me what I can't bear

Take me out of the dark, My Lord
Cause we don't want to be alone
Take me out of the dark, My Lord
I don't want to be there

CaTCHMeiFYouCaN!

any sugges tions as how to find a terror ist? . . .hmmmn . . .maybe we should have a campaign here in singa pore.another one coz i think its the government's most effective weapon in administering discipline here in singapore. ill call it "shave all you can" campaign . . a terrorist never shaves. he dislikes shaving. hehehehe. found a photo that could help this killer. though i was quick enough to shave so that i wont be mistaken . . .hahahaha . . .i despise terrorists like cockroaches. they are cowards. ask osama to be in the boxing ring with me. no rules. just plain fistfight . . .tsk tsk tsk . . .

iPRoMiSe

Dear Wabsie,

I promise to give you the best of myself
and to ask of you no more than you can give.

I promise to respect you as your own person
and to realize that your interests, desires and needs
are no less important than my own.

I promise to share with you my time and my attention
and to bring joy, strength, and imagination to our relationship.

I promise to keep myself open to you,
to let you see through the window of my world into my innermost
fears and feelings, secrets and dreams.

I promise to grow along with you,
to be willing to face changes in order to keep our relationship
alive and exciting.

I promise to love you in good times and bad,
with all I have to give and all I feel inside in the only way I know how.
Completely and forever.



fighting hunger and tiredness, overcoming sleepiness and boredom,
Capt. Oaks.

SeReNDiPiTY . . .

Serendipity is the effect by which one accidentally discovers something fortunate, especially while looking for something else entirely.

thats what it feels like being with this bunch of caring, loving, thoughtful, evil individuals im working with. sometimes it makes you wonder whether fate is really your own doing or made by a divine being overseeing things happening around us.


after i left alexandra hospital, i felt kinda sad coz the bunch i was working with for 2 years made me feel at home. though the management sux plus i dunno where i was headed, my colleagues treated me as a family member. respected my opinions and made me belong. unfortunately some "people" made me feel scared coz they are supposed to be guiding me to the right path of success yet they fell way way short of my expectations. instead, inevitably, i have to move on.

last week was something i never expected. more so yesterday's dinner. noticing im the only pinoy in the table, gave my heart a warm, proud feeling. aside from the evil cat, i do think honestly that they have grown dear to me and i am to them. hats off to you guys for a new home. somehow i get bullied, beaten up or just plain boring days with all of you makes me happy. never mind those we "marked" as incompetent, i still do love them. without them, we will have one less topic. hahaha.
mushy mushy mushy . . .im so gay tonight. yaiks.

HaPiBLeNTyNeS!

did you know that the origins of valentine's day or st. valentine's day isnt romantic at all? heheheh . .not to spoil anything nor declaring myself unromantic but just for facts, it marks a day where one christian martyr died . . .
anyways, i dunno if its bad or good fortune that my wife is sick today . . meaning, i was not alone in the haus. tell me if this is romantic or not? we spent the day in a clinic trying to get her an mc, ate in a very limited selection hawker center, bought 3 kg of bananas that will ripen in 2 days time. went home and watched a gameshow, played football while she slept etc etc . . .
bottom line, i love my best friend. would spend this day with no other. lab u borj. i would love to spend all of my valentine's day with you more.

WHoSaiDiT'SaHoLiDaY?!?!?!?

grrrrrr . .im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx!im a jinx! . .. . its the first day of the chinese new year and my goodness! how can i be busy??? i dunno if this happened first time in tan tock seng hospital, ALL FONE LINES ARE DEAD! and i have a patient with her skull opened by a bunch of adventurers and they ask constanly of blood and other products! i didnt expect this!waaaaaaaaah . .father, father, why art thou forsaken me? life goes on . . . .

HaPPYLuNaRNeWYeaR

geez . . if you are chinese, i think you should spend more than non chinese people every year coz you have more holidays, imagine, you have to celebrate new year twice! lets just put it this way, if you are a rojak singaporean, grandparents are a mix malay and chinese, then you are married to an indian christian guy, lets count how many holidays you have to celebrate. (lets not imagine how your colleagues hate you btw).
new years day. chinese new year. valentine's day (married). lent (good friday). labour day. labor day (might get pregnant). hari raya. deepavali. hari raya haji. national day (coz u are patriotic). christmas! etc etc (sorry if i missed out sumthing.

anyways, i read some comic strip about last year being the year of the fire pig whereas the mother of the house was preparing meals from "pork" during their reunion dinner. makes me wonder this year are they serving roasted rat, mouse kway tyaw, or mice "loh hei" . . .pardon me my chinese friends, i know im just being an ass. im just bored woorking here without much to do. (no stupid nurses to argue around) seems like those with little brains have gone for a long holiday and the smart ones left behind. i pity those chinese nurses though, they look sad as if someone just passed away. tsk tsk tsk. eniweys! happy lunar new year you rats you!

uNDeRSTaNDTHiS!

"Women will never be as successful as men because they have no wives to advise them."

"All women are good - good for nothing, or good for something."

"A woman's mind is cleaner than a man's. She changes it more often."

"My wife is a sex object - every time I ask for sex, she objects."

"The problem with most men is they're assholes. The problem with most women is they put up with those assholes."

"Every woman should have four pets in her life. A mink in her closet, a jaguar in her garage, a tiger in her bed, and a jackass to pay for it all."

“The quickest way to know a woman is to go shopping with her.”

"Women made us lose paradise, but how frequently we find it again in their arms”


hilarious. comments? ladies?

CoNT......

this is a continuation of my busiest night ever in my whole ttsh career. a week after and im still not over it. am i over acting? maybe. runny nose, fever maybe, coughing like a dog, 3 bleeders, depleted fridge, demanding doctors, "demanding" nurses coz the doctors are demanding, problematic transport drivers, nonresponsive bts (sucker) medical officers, a very tired indian janitor/porter. thats all of it. imagine. i should write a book on how to survive. on how to catch shit when its thrown at you. (you don't! coz its shit you dumbass!). long night tonight . .no action. . . .

PuNiSHeD!

i don't know why i am being punished today . . .just when i stepped in for work then bam! . . emergency blood needed . . armpit sweaty, hands barely warmed up . . .and there i go, in the middle of the crossfire of stupid calls and impatient porters in my window. i barely came in and im totally spent. with blocked nose, itchy throat, ears that can barely hear and an aching back, i somehow have to manage to pass through this hell of a night. what did i do wrong Almighty Father?

sad today, thought of my eldest cousin. . . they will send him to his final resting place tomorrow morning . . won't ever going to see him again. the personality, the frankness, the smile even with some tooth lacking. . . my prayers are for you manong chub . . .breaks my heart not to be there. . i'll surely miss you. you are loved by my family so much.

2YeaRS???

i was completely free today . . .since 0100 hrs till 0500 hours, i could do anything except work. no specimens. no calls. its about time i think that they paid back(mumbling here) . .anyways, it gave me time to finish a slideshow for my wife . . its always nice to browse thru old pics . . especially those really close to your heart, if not, embedded in your heart. 2 years running . . tsk tsk tsk . . this coming january 15 marks the day i married my best friend . . that was a blast! . .a lot of things happen . . tsunamis, earthquakes, er, hehehe, lab u borj!. . its just that in a weird, funny kinda way i feel like its a dream. i could close my eyes and see my wife was my classmate and my best mate and we wouldn't have the slightest suspicion or the impossibility of the occurence (wah lau! beli gud engrish ah beng!) that we would end up getting hitched . . anyways, just like the day, that special day. i would still look at you with the same set of eyes. i love you christine. advance happy 2nd anniversary wabsie.

JeeeZZZ

it has been a long time now . .christmas has passed . . .new year came . . .suddenly i got nothing to write . . .now that im on night shift again, i just wanna say F*%K Y*$ to all the people of the world. have a great year ahead. may you create more problems. pollute the earth more. loiter. vandalize.

just a question. what is it with chinese people and the color red? its weird coz during the chinese new year, most of the decors and dresses they wear is colored red but when you come up to the lab and work wearing red, you get weird stares, if not comments. weird people.

anyways, my good friend ritchie gettin hitched . . .God bless you man . . . will see you in a weeks time . . ah . .marriage . .more than salt and pepper . . .must have spices and lots of water . . .low fire . . high . . .nonsense . . im talking nonsense. i just love my wife. thats all i know.